Dual Duel

 The Dual Duel of Mind and Heart.


I have since childhood a firm mind ,focused and determined.Following the passion of my heart.
And both my heart and my mind never conflicted with each other.....always one and same goal.

Till my 1st pregnancy....I continued working upto end.

Once my baby entered the world and the happiest and most wonderful phase of my life ,The Motherhood, began......
And...
The Dual ...
Duel..
Heart and Mind....
Conflict began.
Maternity leave got over.
I had to rejoin my workplace.
The morning "Separation" ,my baby crying and refusing to leave especially while teething or unwell,made me a " Selfish/ Self centered" person in eyes of every one around ...but mostly me myself.
My heart was asking me to leave Anaesthesia.
My Mind advised me to control my emotions and focus on my goals for which I had worked very hard.
Only few times,my Heart won the Dual Duel when my baby was very sick and needed my Attention as a Doctor.
Then the real challenging phase entered my life. ...
A toddler.
A private Freelance Anaesthesia practice
And....
2nd Pregnancy.
My Hyperactive energetic toddler kept me on my toes.
Anaesthesia practice saw me attending night Emmergency cases and lot of moving around to various hospitals.
My 2nd pregnancy gave me severe Hyperemesis.
The exhaustion made me irritable and frustrated.
The Dual became wider.
The Duel Stronger.
Watching my better half working harder than me in his private practice....made me feel guilty of not putting adequate efforts in my professional duties.
At the same time, when he would go off with his friends to destress....and I would be at home with 2 babies howling and jumping over my exhausted sloshed self on the coach...
A part of me felt like just running away from everything and everyone.
But.....
When my little ones hugged me tight and smothered me with kisses...." Mommy,I love you".....
When the Anaesthesia practice got me handling challenging cases and financial support to buy anything and everything for my babies on way back home....

The Dual And Duel.....
Of My Heartvand Mind....
Did go on for years till my little ones grew up. ....
Watching me handle home and practice ....
They too have joined the same profession especially my Daughter....
My daughter knowing well about the Dual Duel.
....

Mommy,if you could manage so well..

Says today....both Heart and Mind together.

Dr Tripti Milind Galgali.
Anaesthesiologist, Hubli.





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